I thought I would take some time to write a little bit about myself so that my readers get to know to me. Like every human being I have been through many difficult times in life but I have also experienced joy.
I had a rough upbringing, I come from a broken family without a dad in the home. I was raised by a single mom who struggled independently and needed assistance to raise three children on her own. As a child, I never experienced what a healthy family life felt like so it is a hunger I have carried with me my entire life. This hunger caused me to have a blind eye to love. I have a huge heart and allowed my heart to lead me in my choices, this resulted in me having many painful life experiences.
I became pregnant at the age of 17 and gave birth to my beautiful daughter at the age of 18. She represented life to me. She was so innocent and precious so I made a promise to myself to always be her provider and protector. God graciously blessed me by opening doors to jobs that paid me enough money to support my daughter and provide for all her needs. We had all the material things we needed to survive, but somehow my inner hunger for a life partner led me in the wrong direction.
Parenting helped me discover that I have a giving heart. I found joy in providing for my daughter and seeing her face light up. This birthed a strong desire within me to help others. I know what it’s like to be in need so when I see someone with a need my instinct is to help them. I find myself having a desire to make their load lighter. So I try my best to help them in any way I can. I give the encouragement I know I would need if I were them.
I know what it’s like to have a longing for something in my heart and I know what it is like to be broken. I also know what it is to feel hopeless and shattered because the one you trusted to protect your heart left you in pieces instead. So when I come across someone who feels shattered or lost, my heart is lead to encourage and help uplift. I don’t want anyone to feel the emptiness I struggled with in my past.
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You will meet many people in life and some will be critical of who you are. Remember not all of them will invest the time to get know you to see what you have to offer, and many will feel your too much for them. These are not “YOUR” people. Wish them well and continue on your own journey.
God will place the right people in your life in HIS perfect timing so always be true to who you are.
You were created with purpose so don’t change yourself to please others or try to win them over. God knew what he was doing when he gifted you with your personal characteristics and talents. So let go of the friends or relationships who don’t take the time to see your value.
Everyone is not for you.
It was such a difficult time in my life and I was struggling to hold myself together. I felt confused, conflicted and as if there was no one I could open up to. I didn’t feel like anyone could understand how I was feeling. I remembered how my younger self would share with all my friends (or those whom I thought were my friends), but I was now in a different place. Life taught me that the advice they all gave made my problems and confusion worse. I had to acknowledge the lesson my past taught me, so I held on for dear life in this internal struggle. My mind went in multiple directions as I sat there alone with tears burning my checks. Why was I here going through this? Why was I feeling this way? I know I am not who I used to be yet here I was in a situation I never imagined being in. Here I was reading insults from someone I thought was my friend…
Why is it that some feel the need to judge your mistakes or sins as if they never fall short?
Healing is one of the hardest things to try to do
It feels nearly impossible when you feel broken
You grieve what was lost, even if it was not meant to be
Seasons come and seasons go
They bring joy and laughter
They leave behind emptiness and sorrow
No matter how deep the loss or the pain
We must keep going forward
We fall and we stumble
But we must rise, we must keep seeking
Storms press us, mold us and stretch our limits
But they must not keep us down
When we feel hope is completely lost
We are blessed with a new day
Bright sunshine that illuminates the sky
The darkness from yesterday is overshadowed by light
It is when we get back up that we find new strength
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We ALL have to start somewhere. Everything begins with a piece. I don’t know about you, but there are many days which I feel all over the place – as if my life is an unorganized mess. That can really be overwhelming. I mean it literally feels as if my mind runs nonstop!!! Many times my mind literally jumps from one thing to another causing me to feel like I am not equipped to do anything. It is in these very moments that I need to stop, take a deep breath and slow down. Always easier said than done, but I am finding that when I take the time to be conscious of the chaos and re-center my mind, that is when I am capable of being most productive. Tackling things one at a time is the only way to truly give your all to the task at hand.
We live in a culture where we all want everything to happen immediately, especially when we are overwhelmed. But being impatient causes us to disregard the importance of the step by step process and many times is what prevents us from finishing what we start. Let’s think of a puzzle for example:
A puzzle consists of many different pieces which fit together to create a big picture. Like a puzzle, we all have our own unique roles to play in life. God created us each with a specific purpose in mind. In a puzzle if you try to insert the wrong piece no matter how many ways you try it, it will not fit. In life, if someone else tries to do what God created us to do, results will not be the same – no one else will be the right fit to do what we are called to do. Read more
There is so much about me that I could write, but first and foremost the most important thing anyone should know is that I Love God. After being part of a small group hosted my cousin on the book Fervent by Priscilla Shier, I felt the Holy Spirit tell me it was time to be obedient and to BOLDLY speak against the spirit of fear and allow God to use me.
I love to write and have gone back and forth with the idea of starting a personal blog for a while now. During this study, God revealed to me that it was time to stop letting fear run my life and time to listen to the still small voice that has been speaking to my spirit for so long. A fire ignited within me and I spent days thinking and compiling lists of potential blog names that represented who I am and also what I desired to share with my readers. I wanted this blog to encourage others and also help keep me accountable and encouraged as well.
Every time I thought I had the perfect name I found that the domain was either taken or the next day I changed my mind. I even went as far as to request ideas from a very close friend and also from my daughter. Fear kept trying to move in speaking lies by telling me I had nothing to say that could help others, that my past made me unqualified to be an encourager, and that my words would be rejected by others. Despite these feelings of inadequacy that were trying to control my mind, I know fear is not from God, so I stood still and waited for God to lead me. Read more